How I Left the Jehovah’s Witnesses to Pursue Filmmaking

Publicerades den 11 jan 2021
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I've wanted to make this video for years. Here I discuss my religious past, and how members of the religion I was raised in attempted to keep me from pursuing my goals. I hope that this video can prove inspirational for other people who have felt trapped in life. Thank you for watching.
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Kommentarer

  • Thank you all so much. The outreach since the interview went up has been overwhelming and has helped me heal. I can’t tell you how much it means to me that you’ve understood. I was anxious about discussing these things, but I’m so happy to learn that many ex-JWs watch the channel, and I truly hope this video reminds you that you’re not alone. Anyone out there afraid to come out about something, I see you. I support you. Thanks so much everyone.

    • Good for you man!! May we all be given the strength to share our perceived vulnerabilities.

    • More power to you dude. Love the channel and love watching you. Remember, you are what you do not whats been done to you, and what you do is amazing.

    • You are incredible! Moral courage like this is rare! Thank you for showing how good a person can be. Celebrate your freedom!

    • I really love this video chris. You have gotten me through so much hard times and made me smile and feel Happy and watching this makes me love you even more for Being vulnerable and soo damnnn cool love you! 🤗😇😇

    • 💚

  • I´m so proud of you, Chris.

  • This is going to help so many people. Thank you. ❤️

  • As someone who “was “ a JW I never felt satisfied there and felt like there holding you back from your true self ,but big ups and respect for people who are still in there ,(btw my mom is still one and it’s hard for her to deal with me leaving that religion)

  • why i stopped walking left, right, left, right to pursue instead walking right, left, right, left

  • Very powerful, thank you for sharing

  • i was raised as a jehovah's witness, i was disfellowshiped at the age of 16. Best thing that ever happened to me. It is a cult!

  • Been following you for years. Love the genuine feelings you put into videos. So happy for you to have come this far in life despite the struggles. You inspire me to work harder on my own passions!

  • It was very brave of you to do this. Everything. Jehovah's witnesses are in a cult. Your pansexual feelings are entirely valid. I myself am this.

  • ExJW here. Thank you so much for being real and addressing the situation as it is. I found your channel through this since I'm a young person who recently left this group also. I look forward to seeing more content and will share this video around to my friends. Thank you again, it's such a help to the cause speaking up like that! Courageous

  • As a secular humanist who is very critical of religion - I think you showed a great deal of courage to not only stand up for yourself but to share these intimate details. I hope you can maintain the connections to your family but even if not - you clearly did the right thing for you.

  • Chris, you've been an inspiration to me and have always been a reviewer I relate to and we have always had mirroring taste in movies and filmmaking style. Your honesty is legendary and deserves praise. I applaud your life choices and perseverance. I aspire to work with you on your dream movie. I may not have lived your life but feel it deeply. Personally I've been through religious upbringing trauma that resulted in similar feelings and used writing to help with those trauma. Within the past 13 years I've felt the same way in my own way of the depressive state and suicidal tendencies that only seemed to at the time be supressed by film and the art of it. Thanks for your honesty once again. A nerd dream for myself is to work with you in the future man. Thanks for being authentically you

  • I have very little experience regarding JW's (as far as I'm aware I've only known one in my entire life), but I'm certainly well acquainted with the pain and fear of being cut off from family as a result of religion. My mother and I almost literally had to kidnap my grandparents on their way out the door from church so she she could see them one last time, for the first time in nearly a decade. My grandfather passed away not long after. I haven't spoken to a portion of my family with the exception of very brief courtesy exchanges at funerals in over 20 years. Its something no one should go through and it's all too common

  • So proud of you Chris!

  • My jaw was on the floor for this whole video. Your courage and your trust in yourself are fucking inspirational. The video you added from '09 when you had to shut down your original channel was heartbreaking; it was so clearly a cry for help. What a story, though, you trusted your instincts and overcame so much to live your own life. No wonder why you said in another video that you don't like to go along with the mod mentality to either shit-on or over praise a movie. That's totally understandable.

  • Good talk, see ya out there..

  • brave and cool

  • Then become a Unitarian Christian who believes the father is the only true God and jesus is his servant

  • God is not a man or a bearded guy floating in the sky, the trinity is a pagan belief. There is only one god who is totally unique, nothing is comparable to him, the universe cannot even contain him let alone a man or any creature

  • I’m so sorry you had to deal with that man. Jehovah’s Witness is a cult. True Christianity are from the words of Jesus Christ the act of believing in him that he is messiah the son of man that died on the cross for all of humanities sins is what saves you from damnation. It’s not earned you can’t work for it your faith and belief in Jesus Christ is your ticket to heaven and nothing in this life will separate you from him afterwards it says your sealed meaning bound forever. The false religions take the words of Christ and pervert them to make their ends meet and it’s true evil and causes sorrow Jesus commanded us to love one another and to be content not judge another sin is sin and a true Christian doesn’t hate anyone for god so loved the world he sent his only begotten son not to judge the world but to save it and everyone can be saved even people who identify as gay are sealed bound to Christ which boggles everyone’s mind but it’s true. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that may god heal you in Jesus name amen :)

  • Quite the story. I definitely can empathize with much of what you said. Although I wasn't raised a Jehovah's Witness, I was raised in a Christian environment with many similar themes, behaviors, thinking, etc. I'm glad you made it out.

  • ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Chris 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪

  • Thank you so much for making this. Sent this to a few friends and it must have flicked a switch and made them get my upbringing. I’m now using this as a resource forever!

  • Chris Stuckman, I support you in this expose, so to speak. You are brave. And you’ve shared this in a very mature and respectful way. I believe you have helped many people with this video. Very commendable. I am a Christian and I did have a short experience with this particular church but had no idea how far the issues went. This firsthand experience you’ve shared sheds much light on the organization and will likely help many. I hope you and your family maintain your relationship.

  • it's not a religion it's a cult

  • I watched this video. My heart goes out to you. Keep doing this kind of content.

  • I'm very happy for you! Watching this has given me hope for the future, honestly. I appreciate how open and candid you were with very sensitive material. I think confessions like this can really serve to unify more people.

  • I admire you, Chris , for sharing your story. It takes a great courage and sense of justice to do it, basically everything that that cult doesn't have. And yes, it's a cult, because God (Jehova) didn't make those laws, but few people did, for they all gain.

  • Thank you Chris for being you, a great reviewer, a great speaker and a great soul. Thank you, thank you, thank you for following your dream and giving us your greatness. From one Ohioian to another, thank you again.

  • *welcome to the pan brigade*~

  • Do you have like a blog... of what you went through... this hits home.. been DF'd for the past 10 years...

  • Thank you for your courage and commitment to authenticity.

  • So so much support for you.

  • I was raised Christian and my mother converted to the witnesses when I was 18. It's a scary religion man... The fact that you can be disowned by your family and friends for not being a witness is so bizarre.

  • I'd say Islam takes the cake for the least-inclusive religion.

  • You really gave up everything to do what you love. I'm glad you have found happiness in your life. I'm sorry what it cost you.

  • From what i heard, they have someone on the inside that will slowly melt that cult away. Their army is massive, but don’t worry man, ours is bigger.

  • Thank you so much for sharing this, which could not have been easy in so many ways. You have such a good, honest way of speaking. This took guts. My best friend was married to a JW for nearly 20 years. She is Catholic and the things she had to endure with her ex and the JW ways was nothing compared to what you went through. Still, I am aware of the cult and how horrible they are to people. They are not Christians. Christians would not disfellowship someone for being gay or anything -- it is not my duty as a Christian to judge someone!!! That's between that person and God. You didn't say if you are a person of faith now. I just hope you know a true Christian would not judge (well we still probably would because we are imperfect and sinners, but I digress). I am glad you escaped the cult and thanks for referring Leah Remini's episode about the JW's on her show about Scientology (also a cult). It's so sad these things exist. People just want somewhere to belong and they are brainwashed into thinking what they are doing is right. Course, many could say the same about Christianity! Thank you again for sharing your experience. I hope it helps someone out there escape the cult they are in. Just a darn dirty shame!!!

  • ROCKSTAR

  • You're being way too polite about this. It's a disgusting manipulative cult. It's scary people buy into this. Anything that makes you disown people for no good reason is evil.

    • Yep. Them, Scientologists, Mormons, and Seventh Day Adventists are really, really out there...in my opinion.

  • Your talent was a threat and they wanted to crush it. Because they knew your talent would open doors that they can’t close and bring opportunities and friends that they can’t take away. As an Ex-JW, I thank you for sharing your story.

  • My ex-girlfriend was a JW, so this is actually very interesting.

  • Chris is a BAD A** BITCH kill it keep on shining my guy!!!

  • It is so therapeutic to be able to offload all those feelings. I have been out for more than 30 years and didn't have these social medias avenues both to vent out or listening someone like you. Well done. You are young and you already opened your mind. You going to learn sooooo much about the world and yourself and will develop a very fine tune dial for manipulators and bullshitters. Welcome to the worldly world. Is better than you thought

  • It makes me happy to see 1.2 m views

  • We're Pentecostal, we actually drew 14 people out of JW into plain old christianity. It's not as exciting but a lot less judgment. The rest of the JW's were pretty mad at us.... Good times.

    • A lot less judgement? Not in my experience but ok...

  • Sweet, sweet Chris. I have followed and enjoyed your videos since I, myself, was at a pretty low point in my life in 2015 untill now. I think it is so refreshing to experience a (dare I call it) "friend", finally being able to breathe freely. When I first started watching your content, I was wondering why you hardly ever cursed, and when "one slipped" you'd be so apologetic. Amazingly brave of you to share these pieces of personal information to us, your online "friends" from all over the world. I am also in a relationship with someone who is pan or fluid, or whatever he'd name it. As soon as he opened up about that, a lot of pieces fell into place, and honesty should always be rewarded, even if taboo, I think. Because of the courage it takes. In the end, I think, love always wins. Much love from here ❤ Thank you for being here

  • That's taken out of the context that's not what Jehovah witnesses believe that's not what they preach. That's not what bible teach that's just taken out of context. Anybody can believe anything. If you don't believe the bible I don't know what you afraid of and NO there is reprocation for leaving and no... none his of the brothers and sisters believe Jesus only half brother James followed him, there was no reprocations for his siblings

  • Sorry, my heart legit goes out to you, I'm SO happy you are free now tho'! They sound like a bunch of hypocrites. Pardon me, but,that's what it sounds like,(to an outsider/sinner,or whatever we're called). Much ♡

  • I was raised by a mom with bipolar / psychotic tendency also she became a JW when I was very young. She would fiercely punish and she would not stop until until I was curled up ball on the floor and puddle of my tears , I remember one time she use a metal spoon and I tried to block the oncoming assault she caught me just right and Brooke the skin on my arm what a bloody mess that was . She told me it was my fault and basically it was her right God given right responsibilities to punish me for my sins . One of her favorite sayings was get behind me Satan when I did something wrong. I don't blame Jehovahs Witnesses for my moms mental disorder but I do blame them for knowing and not doing anything about it . One time my mom bit me and my stepfather witch landed us in the hospital and her in the psychotic ward . Although a Witnesses family took me in as soon as they released my mom they returned me to her as if nothing happened. Long story short I am disfellowshiped and not all the legal and illegal drugs or therapy can make me understand why a child must live that kinds a life . My mom is still a JW as far as I know she is still alive as far as I know she believes she is going to live in a paradise for being such a Righteous servant of GOD and that I am headed to die forever for my sin of being born . Thanks for taking a moment.

  • As someone who also grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness I can totally relate. It took me so long to realize my sexuality and even longer to accept it. It means a lot to hear your story and know that I’m not alone

  • Wow. Just wow.

  • Dude.... as a Gay Ex mormon Man of color , i COMPLETELY TOTALLY get where youre at with this ENTIRE Video . I love you as a person, and your content is amazing . Im glad youre able to Be Yourself and Life in the way youd like to live. I DO hope your family Doesnt do what you suspect they will. BUt as you said.. "fuck it "

  • The best part about this video is that you have a huge following and you have probably saved several people who may fall for the witnesses. So thx for opening up. I was raised a JW and I'm thrilled you have the courage to blast them. Save lives....don't be quiet about it.

  • You have my deepest respect, it DOES sound crazy,scary and unfathomable, yes. Hurts to even think about😪. You are so courageous, a real beacon of love & light. Take care♡ Drop the guilt,parental brainwashing is very powerful. 🙏🏼🕊💜

  • Congratulations on this video. What a fucking triumph.

  • This was brave as hell. I'm sorry you had to make sacrifices just to say your truth here. I hope the witness family members you have can be free from them one day. Public figures bringing attention to groups like this means a lot. I appreciate it. It's scary, insane and sad....

    • I hope your Dad is okay and your family doesn't get backlash for this either. And if they do- may it break them free to rebuild away from them.

  • Chris, good on you for doing this. If your family aren't ready to hear this then I'm sorry. They should be proud of the bravery it took to make this video. I hope one day they truly are. The ironic thing is, being brought up in a fundamentalist pentecostal church setting (for instance: banning playing anything on an instrument except christian music because it glorifies the devil... and having regular rededication ceremonies where you burn your secular music), we were taught this sort of pecking order of why other church groups like JWs, Mormons, even Catholics were "wrong" and "cultlike" but how WE were learning the only "correct" path to eternity through faith in Jesus and not "works". So even within "christian" religious groups there is definitely a shunning of ideology of other groups to the point of seeing all others as wrong even though the God is the same and teachings and restrictions are really quite similar (now thst you describe JW in detail) - it seems it's just the men at the top making up the rules that differ. I'm in Australia so I'm glad you showed the information regarding JWs in my country it was very informative, especially the severe shunning which as you say is completely isolating and devastating. The shunning is a bit more unspoken in my upbringing, but you were definitely thought of as a "backslider" and a potential bad influence to others if they associated with you once you left the church... In the end, I am happy that you (and we!) were able to find the person inside that they were suppressing, even though it has cost you. I definitely found the mind that was being suppressed... now I just need to find the heart and soul.

  • I have to say thank you so much for making this video I may not be part of Jehovah's witnesses but I very much know how you felt I used to be Jewish and I live with a Christian family right now, I used to a somewhat still deal with some of the problems you dealt with when my birth mother was married her ex husband used to make me feel like that I don't want to be Jewish , do to forcing us to go to Synagogue , feeling alienated for being black and liking some entertainment on SEnewss, homophobic, and many more , few years later I moved with my dad and he is Christian and it's not as bad when me & my mom was living with my ex step father but I don't agree with some things in this religion , I consider my self someone who is just a person who just believes in God no religion, at some point last year I came out my parents , my birth mom was very supportive , my dad doesn't agree with it at all but doesn't treat me like I'm a person of sin and my step mom is the same, coming out to as a Bisexual teen to my parents was the hardest thing I've done and I had to realize that it's okay to be that regardless to what people say about. Thank you for making this video you are very brave , you have given me confidence. :3

  • Thank you for speaking out.

  • My whole family are jehovah witnesses. My mom decided to marry a catholic man and now my whole family shunned her, my siblings, and even me. Everytime my mom tries to talk to my grandma my grandma tells my mom that god is punishing her. Im glad im out of that religion tbh, its toxic to families and communities becuase you never get to talk to them again. Also the sexual abuse is crazy, most of my cousins have been sexually abused by the elders and they continue to be in the religion when the girls get shunned for speaking out.

  • sounds as stupid and ridiculous as Scientology , a pure cult of ignorance and stupidity and intolerance

  • good for you man , religion has been holding back society for hundreds of years , we are still living in the dark ages because of it

  • You're very brave for making this video Chris. I'm proud of you speaking out and coming back to reality. They brainwashed you and you managed to get away, you should be proud.

  • Right about now, if feels that much of humanity is involved with a cult in some form, whether religious, political or social. You have my respect, Chris.

  • I am so insanely proud of you for being able to speak about all of this; from another deconvert (from a different religion), your struggles are so relatable and I really loved this video. Thank you so much for doing. This; please write that book about this topic!!!

  • Much respect for you and I hope your in a better place now I can't imagine going through what you have done but your clearly better off and stronger than the average person.

  • Well done, proud of you for speaking out and sharing!

  • Good riddance to those monsters I say. Using religion to fear monger. Literally the second oldest trick in the book. Besides Tricks.

  • Well you have your amazing family now (your gf + babies)... I see a bright and beautiful future in your life... Plus! You are a great guy! You deserve it. 53:36 your videos are not the same without that laugh! Love it!

  • You are perfect the way you are now being yourself. I admire you and congratulations to your true freedom.

  • Thank you for this Chris, it means a lot to me and I'm sure all of us. Sharing things like that is the hardest part. Good for you!

  • Wow this was incredibly powerful and your authenticity and courage are cathartic and refreshing to hear. I’m left wondering where you faith and spirituality are at now? Do you still believe in God or have a spiritual practice?

  • One thing I learned the hard way is that friends and family really doesn't mean shit in the end. The same people you are super close with today might not play a single role in your life 10 years from now. Sometimes it gets really lonely but unfortunately that seems to be the way it is.

  • Wow. I had no idea! I appreciate you sharing so much, and I hope your family continues to speak with you. I am most happy that you found a way to follow your passion against all odds. It's inspiring, and your content is great as always. Happy New Year!

  • Former JW here... You do you and let other people live their own lives... That's why I didn't even try to come back to the religion... Was kicked out of there because the sin I committed of... dating! I was about to become an incel with murderous and vengeful thoughts against everyone, as I saw other so-called "brothers" I used to know there... So, in a way, SINS SAVED MY LIFE!

  • This was very interesting.

  • I am a devout Christian and im glad you got out of it. The way I interpret the Bible is obedience out of love instead of fear and legalism. Especially the legalism imposed by extra biblical material

  • Big love. That must have been tough. This is a great message for those who are struggling and don't know if there's a way out of their situation.

  • This is definitely a truly heart felt video and we as your fans appreciate your honesty and I'm happy for you man.

  • Thank you for sharing this with us. It is so important to shine a light on these zealots. Really appreciate all your hard work

  • I am also a Jehova's Witness, born and raised, third generation. I'm a grown-up man, 53 years old, and i'm mentally worn out, i had a conscience crisis for a long time, 80% of my family are JW thats why I can't afford to be disfellowshipped, I live in constant fear and depression, had nightmares of the elders chasing me. I had suicidal thoughts from the moment i realized we were lied our entire life, i had to go to therapy. It's so good to know I'm not the only one on this planet with these feelings. My old man died faithful waiting for an armageddon that according to him every year was coming

  • You are so courageous, Chris. It is so obvious your life was meant to be entwined with movies and filmmaking, and to see you pursue your destiny despite the horrid and unfair consequences is absolutely inspiring. It makes me feel braver just watching you be brave. ❤

  • religious extremists are always causing nothing but trouble - no matter what religion they are from..

  • I’ve cried while watching this vid. As a former “Jehova’s child” I’ve felt your pain. I admire you so much! Thank you for speaking up because sometimes It feels as there aren’t many people who know this religion and how hard it can affect you and those around you.

  • I hate religion. It stops people thinking or questioning anything and straight jackets them into a daft way of being. Religion is also an excellent tool for making good people to do terrible things.

  • dude .. everybody knew you were gay .. haha congrats

  • I admire your bravery and honesty. I thoroughly enjoy your reviews on films. Hope you are well.

  • I come from a family of performing artists and they refused to give up on their God given talent so the whole family was given the boot from the JWs. Whenever they come knocking on my door, I politely let them know that as someone who was kicked out of their club, I have no use for their religion. I do however enjoy the art in their handouts. It’s artistically solid.

  • I'm so glad you made this video, im am currently stuck in this situation and im in a really dark place right now and just knowing im not alone has rlly helped, you should be so proud of yourself to speak honestly about all this

  • Fellow ex-JW pansexual here, thank you for sharing your story

  • They really rail against “apostates”

  • The Jehovah's Witnesses cause my aunt to die of cancer. She could have had an operation to remove a tumor from her breast, but her congregation said that she couldn't because of their religious beliefs. So the cancer grew, spread, and she died. Her kids developed SEVERE mental problems, one had to be committed, the other disappeared for years and wandering the streets muttering to herself, delusional and homeless (she also became pregnant under mysterious circumstances), and it was years before they were able to return to society. The Jehovah's Witnesses were a major cause of their problems. Although it was obvious they had mental issues, the religion only made it sooooo much worse. They all imagined they could hear god speaking to them all the time. In the case of my male cousin Stevie, some of the things "god" told him to do was stab people.... no... I'm not making that up. In fact, he was committed because he tried to do just that on more than one occasion. The religion is a cult. Most religions are, but the Jehovah's Witnesses are evil. Just plain evil.

  • Thanks, I grew up JW. Suicide is very common among teen and young adult JWs.

    • Most of my peers at the Kingdom Hall turned to drugs and alcohol and suicide.

  • Wow. Thanks for the perspective. For reference, I grew up in a religiously lax family. We believe in God, but I never acknowledged that it was Jesus Christ. I've always felt God all my life, and I know that sounds crazy to some people. I did convert to be a non-denomination Christian. I don't regret that discussion one bit. I love God and I know he has a purpose. I learned about the love of God, and that He judges us in the end, not the World. I love your work. Keep doing you. Let the Lord judge you. Fuck the rest of them.

  • when god gives you lemons, you find a new god!

  • Chris that why everybody loves you this is very strong message you putting out their for people who been in this type of situation before. I'm glad you're speaking out for the first time about your past religion and moving forward with your life. Never did trust any jehovah witnesses in my life for you coming out saying they try to take away everything you loved make me upset, angry, and very unhappy. I've love all of your movie reviews even your hilariously reviews as well I want to thank you for putting this out on your SEnewss channel. 🙌

  • And now u have a beautiful wife. Your own house. A Dodge charger and watch movies all day for a profession

  • Sounds like a cult

  • I'm just floored by your honesty and admire the strength it must have taken to be where you are now in your life. And I'm humbled that you shared your journey. I really hope that this will bring some healing to you and your family.